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Sep. 6th, 2006 | 01:19 pm
Oh yeah I also bought Kushiel's Dart at the Borders inside the airport when I went to my bro's wedding. I actually read a good deal of it before Ed Psych and Amer. Lit took all my time. Aren't you pround of me.
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Sep. 6th, 2006 | 01:13 pm
mood:
sleepy
So I'm thinking baout changing my major again. Teching blows, too much volunteer hours, extra projects, and other bullshit. I just want to get to Japan, stay a few years and come home. I want to do something I like and I like learning Japanese. I don't like education, engineering, I do like english though. I love English. So what to do. My mom still hates the idea of me not being a engineer, lawyer, doctor, journalist, anything with money and a certifiable future. Whatever, my life, my time. I only get to make this mistake once so I'm gonna make it. Oh well just venting at least I'm not pissed right now, not until I go to work anyway. Time for a new job.
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Checklist: Shades, Trenchcoat, Gloves, Names, Guns.
Aug. 20th, 2006 | 10:28 pm
mood:
pissed off
music: Kizu no dakare no Lola- Gackt version
I haven't updated in like a month so I felt it was overdue. The thing is I hate that I always write negative things in here. I'm not negative, just pissed. Diana made a comment a while ago saying I'm always "pissed". SHe's right, I am. I'm always angry, ticked off, hot tempered, gonna hit you in the mouth pissed off. But only at work. I'm content with my job, I have my clique of friends, the guy I, um, flirt with (i don't really like him that way anymore), my co-worker aka the people I don't like or dislike, the people who get on my nerves ( Idon't hate them, they just irritate the hell out of me) and the people I basically hate. The list includes 3 female supervisors, 1 asshole reciept checker, and 2 lazy ass cashiers. The list is growing though, some people are crossing the line between irritation and hate.
I really don't know the deal with these female supervisors (dumb bitches). Two of them were cashiers in the time I've worked at Fry's. Valerie used to be okay, not especially great/nice/polite, but okay. To describe her, my friend Nikki calls her quasimodo. I laugh, but that's alittle harsh. She's not a very pretty person physically: she has messed up teeth, she crosseyed, her body is heavy in top and small on the body (like an egg on top of two pencils). What irriates me about her is that as a cashier and even now as a supervisor, SHE DOESN'T WEAR SOCKS. That is nasty, alot of people at my job don't wear socks,IT'S NASTY! PUT ON SOME FUCKING SOCKS, I HATE SHOES AND SOCKS BUT IF I'M GONNA WEAR THEM EVERYONE SHOULD WEAR THEM! ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU WEAR A SKIRT OR DRESS NYLONS SHOULD BE WORN, IT'S A BUSINESS, NO ONE WANTS TO SEE YOUR PALE AND/OR ASHY AND/OR BLUE VEINY LEGS OR YOUR FEET THAT ARE GETTING RED FROM NOT WEARING SOCKS! GOD, I HATE IT!
Let's turn off capslock and continue with Valerie. When she bacame a supervisor she got an attitude, and I hate people who go on power trips. You are not my mom, so you are not gonna talk to me any way you want to. SHe just tells people to do stuff, "Do Fry's Cards, Now." "Go on you're safety sweep, Now." "Turn on your light." No "please", no "thank you", no "could you." Gosh, would it kill her to ASK instead of TELL. People respond better to kindness than command. God get a life. And she can't count, What The Fuck. Wear a suit that fits, and put on some socks and get a life.
Next we have Susan. She's only worked for Fry's for Five months(maybe) And the dumb bitch doesn't even know her job. She's a liar and that is fucking juvenile. What kind of grown woman lies. We fucking caught her too. For example, she told a cashier named Maria to go do fry's cards, Maria didn't argue she just asked if she could go to the bathroom first. Susan says "go ask jen first." Jen is the store manager. She said this trying to throw her weight around, but Maria actually went to the store manager and told her that Susan said she had to ask her before she could go to the bathroom. Jen got pissed, she called Susan and put her in her place. Susan said she didn't say that, but why would Maria lie about that. So Susan was mad, because she said something dumb and it came back to her. DUMB BITCH. Later that day I had safety sweep at 4, I was stck with a customer for the whole hour, so I didn't go. My friends Jacki and Nikki had it after me, so I said I'd help them since I knew there was going to be alot of garbage. So we went and changed every garbage bag in the breakroom, bathroom, and cafe. The dumb bitch at the cafe calls the front and says we forgot the garbage in the back. Susan comes up to us and says that the cafe said we didn't change the garbage. Now we're in front of the bathroom at this point getting ready to wash the latex from the gloves off our hands. We were heated. Jacki told her that's BS, and she said their supervisor had called and told her that. She knew she was lying, Riza is the cafe supervisor and she wasn't in the store at all that day. So we go to the cafe, these jackasses shoved some boxes in a garbage can AFTER we left with a cart full of their garbage. We asked who called the front, since we were getting talked to cuz some dumb lazy bitch didn't want to walk from the cafe to recieving (the whole fucking ten feet) and put the boxes in the fucking garbage. GOD I HATE PEOPLE. The old lady named Charito called and we asked her why'd she say that when we just changed the garbage. SHe said she didn't say she was a supervisor, and Susan walked in with a dumb look on her face. She told me that LERMA says to go back to the front since my name wasn't on safety sweep since we had a line. IF THE DUMB BITCH DIDN'T SEND US BACK TO STUPID CAFE WE WOULD HAVE BEEN AT THE FRONT ALREADY.
Today we were working and it's kinda busy on Sundays, Nikki and my other friend Rachelle went "to the bathroom" but actually went to the breakroom afterward for a snack. Like 15/20 minutes later Susan starts asking where Rachelle and Nikki are, she checks the duties to make sure they're not on safety sweep, and then coverage to make sure they're not on lunch then she says loudly. "Why would Nikki and Rachelle lie like that?" So they would get in trouble.(You dumb bitch) I asked if I could go to the bathroom, and stopped by the breakroom to let Nikki and Rachelle know to get back to the front since Susan was being a jackass. She was doing her job at this point, but me and Nikki were still peeved from yesterday. Later that day on my lunch I noticed Susan had the same lunch, sitting with her was Crystal, now I pretty much hate Crystal, but I can handle her in small doses. Crystal's lunch was at 12. She was on a break when I came to work at 11, and while I was on my 30 minute lunch she was in the breakroom. Talking with Susan. Her Buddy *vomits*. I left the breakroom when my lunch was over, and Crystal was still in there. I clocked in and went to the supervisor podium to tell my friend Cel (a sup) how strange it was that Nikki and Rachelle got hunted down when their break was over, but Crystal was sitting with Susan in the breakroom for a whole hour when everyone knows she wasn't on lunch. Lerma went to the breakroom and Got Crystal, but I wanted her to talk to Susan too. But Lerma has been bitchy lately so I left it at that. I told Nikki and she got mad cuz Susan was pulling double standard. DUMB BITCH. I hate her.
Also the little bitch at the door named Jeremy pissed me off. We had an argument yesterday, it has a lot to do with policy so I won't bother going into detail. ANyway he pissed me off royally and started talking shit to me like. "Can I do my job, yeah you need to blah blah blah." I said, "why don't you do your job and let me do mine you little bitch." ANd I walked away. Later I'm telling Nikki and Rachelle and my sup Editha come up to me and asked is that why Jeremy was complaining about me to her. THAT pissed me off. Okay Jeremy is like 27, what kind of skinny dick little bitch, runs to a supervisor over an argument. Please, it's not like I got into trouble. Editha didn't really care. But honestly are we in like elementary school, fucking grow up. I HATE FRY'S PEOPLE. They are so stupid.
I left out one cashier, but she's just lazy, that's why i hate her. The 3rd supervisor is Lerma, she's getting bitchier by the day. But I have nothing to say about her right now.
On a side note we have some new hires that are about to be on my hitlist. One is a girl named Kelly who has a huge attitude for someone who can't follow directions. The second is a guy named Anthony who is just the most irritating person the face of earth. I guess I should just grin and bare it but damn, are these people retarded.
I really don't know the deal with these female supervisors (dumb bitches). Two of them were cashiers in the time I've worked at Fry's. Valerie used to be okay, not especially great/nice/polite, but okay. To describe her, my friend Nikki calls her quasimodo. I laugh, but that's alittle harsh. She's not a very pretty person physically: she has messed up teeth, she crosseyed, her body is heavy in top and small on the body (like an egg on top of two pencils). What irriates me about her is that as a cashier and even now as a supervisor, SHE DOESN'T WEAR SOCKS. That is nasty, alot of people at my job don't wear socks,IT'S NASTY! PUT ON SOME FUCKING SOCKS, I HATE SHOES AND SOCKS BUT IF I'M GONNA WEAR THEM EVERYONE SHOULD WEAR THEM! ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU WEAR A SKIRT OR DRESS NYLONS SHOULD BE WORN, IT'S A BUSINESS, NO ONE WANTS TO SEE YOUR PALE AND/OR ASHY AND/OR BLUE VEINY LEGS OR YOUR FEET THAT ARE GETTING RED FROM NOT WEARING SOCKS! GOD, I HATE IT!
Let's turn off capslock and continue with Valerie. When she bacame a supervisor she got an attitude, and I hate people who go on power trips. You are not my mom, so you are not gonna talk to me any way you want to. SHe just tells people to do stuff, "Do Fry's Cards, Now." "Go on you're safety sweep, Now." "Turn on your light." No "please", no "thank you", no "could you." Gosh, would it kill her to ASK instead of TELL. People respond better to kindness than command. God get a life. And she can't count, What The Fuck. Wear a suit that fits, and put on some socks and get a life.
Next we have Susan. She's only worked for Fry's for Five months(maybe) And the dumb bitch doesn't even know her job. She's a liar and that is fucking juvenile. What kind of grown woman lies. We fucking caught her too. For example, she told a cashier named Maria to go do fry's cards, Maria didn't argue she just asked if she could go to the bathroom first. Susan says "go ask jen first." Jen is the store manager. She said this trying to throw her weight around, but Maria actually went to the store manager and told her that Susan said she had to ask her before she could go to the bathroom. Jen got pissed, she called Susan and put her in her place. Susan said she didn't say that, but why would Maria lie about that. So Susan was mad, because she said something dumb and it came back to her. DUMB BITCH. Later that day I had safety sweep at 4, I was stck with a customer for the whole hour, so I didn't go. My friends Jacki and Nikki had it after me, so I said I'd help them since I knew there was going to be alot of garbage. So we went and changed every garbage bag in the breakroom, bathroom, and cafe. The dumb bitch at the cafe calls the front and says we forgot the garbage in the back. Susan comes up to us and says that the cafe said we didn't change the garbage. Now we're in front of the bathroom at this point getting ready to wash the latex from the gloves off our hands. We were heated. Jacki told her that's BS, and she said their supervisor had called and told her that. She knew she was lying, Riza is the cafe supervisor and she wasn't in the store at all that day. So we go to the cafe, these jackasses shoved some boxes in a garbage can AFTER we left with a cart full of their garbage. We asked who called the front, since we were getting talked to cuz some dumb lazy bitch didn't want to walk from the cafe to recieving (the whole fucking ten feet) and put the boxes in the fucking garbage. GOD I HATE PEOPLE. The old lady named Charito called and we asked her why'd she say that when we just changed the garbage. SHe said she didn't say she was a supervisor, and Susan walked in with a dumb look on her face. She told me that LERMA says to go back to the front since my name wasn't on safety sweep since we had a line. IF THE DUMB BITCH DIDN'T SEND US BACK TO STUPID CAFE WE WOULD HAVE BEEN AT THE FRONT ALREADY.
Today we were working and it's kinda busy on Sundays, Nikki and my other friend Rachelle went "to the bathroom" but actually went to the breakroom afterward for a snack. Like 15/20 minutes later Susan starts asking where Rachelle and Nikki are, she checks the duties to make sure they're not on safety sweep, and then coverage to make sure they're not on lunch then she says loudly. "Why would Nikki and Rachelle lie like that?" So they would get in trouble.(You dumb bitch) I asked if I could go to the bathroom, and stopped by the breakroom to let Nikki and Rachelle know to get back to the front since Susan was being a jackass. She was doing her job at this point, but me and Nikki were still peeved from yesterday. Later that day on my lunch I noticed Susan had the same lunch, sitting with her was Crystal, now I pretty much hate Crystal, but I can handle her in small doses. Crystal's lunch was at 12. She was on a break when I came to work at 11, and while I was on my 30 minute lunch she was in the breakroom. Talking with Susan. Her Buddy *vomits*. I left the breakroom when my lunch was over, and Crystal was still in there. I clocked in and went to the supervisor podium to tell my friend Cel (a sup) how strange it was that Nikki and Rachelle got hunted down when their break was over, but Crystal was sitting with Susan in the breakroom for a whole hour when everyone knows she wasn't on lunch. Lerma went to the breakroom and Got Crystal, but I wanted her to talk to Susan too. But Lerma has been bitchy lately so I left it at that. I told Nikki and she got mad cuz Susan was pulling double standard. DUMB BITCH. I hate her.
Also the little bitch at the door named Jeremy pissed me off. We had an argument yesterday, it has a lot to do with policy so I won't bother going into detail. ANyway he pissed me off royally and started talking shit to me like. "Can I do my job, yeah you need to blah blah blah." I said, "why don't you do your job and let me do mine you little bitch." ANd I walked away. Later I'm telling Nikki and Rachelle and my sup Editha come up to me and asked is that why Jeremy was complaining about me to her. THAT pissed me off. Okay Jeremy is like 27, what kind of skinny dick little bitch, runs to a supervisor over an argument. Please, it's not like I got into trouble. Editha didn't really care. But honestly are we in like elementary school, fucking grow up. I HATE FRY'S PEOPLE. They are so stupid.
I left out one cashier, but she's just lazy, that's why i hate her. The 3rd supervisor is Lerma, she's getting bitchier by the day. But I have nothing to say about her right now.
On a side note we have some new hires that are about to be on my hitlist. One is a girl named Kelly who has a huge attitude for someone who can't follow directions. The second is a guy named Anthony who is just the most irritating person the face of earth. I guess I should just grin and bare it but damn, are these people retarded.
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Fry's Rocks
Jul. 14th, 2006 | 11:13 pm
mood:
bouncy
music: Itsuwari no musette- Malice Mizer
Yeah I met Carey Hart today, he's hot. I had a good day after that.
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Pirates 2
Jul. 7th, 2006 | 03:14 am
mood:
sleepy
So Dead Man's Chest, just got home from watching it and what to say. Go see it yourself, all I have to say is when the credits start rolling LEAVE THE FUCKING THEATER. If someone tells you otherwise, hit them as hard as you can. On a lighter note, Johnny Depp is still a great actor.
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BSing with paintshop
Jul. 3rd, 2006 | 02:40 am
mood:
artistic
music: Bel Air- Malice Mizer
SO I'm excited for Pirates but there's another movie coming out next year that I'm even more excited to see. It's set to debut like six months after Spider 3.

Screw Kirsten Dunst and Sofia Myles, Franco's got jungle fever.

Screw Kirsten Dunst and Sofia Myles, Franco's got jungle fever.
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Fustrations of the coworker kind
Jun. 15th, 2006 | 11:24 pm
mood:
frustrated
music: rock the boat -aaliyah
So yeah (do I begin every entry with that?) I hate Justin. I do, I hate him. He frustrates me, to no extent. He's jokes around with me, talks with me, we have lunch together once in a blue moon, and I give him a ride home when we close together which is like every thursday. But he frustrates me, do you know why? Cuz I don't know what the hell he is thinking. Let me replay the scene that took place in the car like and hour ago.
"Do you want a ride?"
"Yeah, sure thanks... SO what's been going on with you?"
"You know, same old thing, when I'm not working I'm.."
"Shopping."
"No I actually haven't been shopping this week."
"Oh, are you sick, should I get a doctor"
"NO, I just had to fix stuff with my car."
"Oh, well that's a good reason."
"Blah, blah, blah,"
"Blah, blah. blah."
"Relationships" -to note I really don't know how we got on that subject.
So we start talking about past relationships I told him my longest relationship was three months the I told then guy to lose my number. He said his longest relationship was two years, he said his problem with finding good girlfriends is that he seldom pays attention to anyone else but the person he's involved with and that he dotes on them. ANd yes he used the word "dote" I said my problem is that I'm picky and I irritate easily. He said it's good to be picky.
"So how long has you relationship been going on now?"
"WHat?"
"You and your current girlfriend"
"I don't have a girlfriend"
note: this wasn't a sly attempt for me to find out if he was dating someone, he has a big problem with switching tense when he's talking and I listen when people are talking to me.
"Oh, I thought you did?"
"....."
"........" the longest ackward silence in my life to date.
"I just can't seem to find the right girlfriend."
"Me too."
"Well you just need to find a guy who'll make you laugh, call you beautiful, love you,a dn not hit you."
"You find him for me and I'll give you a million dollars."
"Yeah" ackward smirk*
"Hmm" *Amber fake smile
That's the gist of this, now remember I'm booksmart I have no idea what's going on until it's over. So someone tell me what the hell was going on? honestly cuz as soon as he got out the car, I was screaming "I hate you" I like him, I really do, he's a total loser, but he's a loveable loser, honest! I really can't tell if he likes me or not, and I'm starting to get sick of not knowing.
"Do you want a ride?"
"Yeah, sure thanks... SO what's been going on with you?"
"You know, same old thing, when I'm not working I'm.."
"Shopping."
"No I actually haven't been shopping this week."
"Oh, are you sick, should I get a doctor"
"NO, I just had to fix stuff with my car."
"Oh, well that's a good reason."
"Blah, blah, blah,"
"Blah, blah. blah."
"Relationships" -to note I really don't know how we got on that subject.
So we start talking about past relationships I told him my longest relationship was three months the I told then guy to lose my number. He said his longest relationship was two years, he said his problem with finding good girlfriends is that he seldom pays attention to anyone else but the person he's involved with and that he dotes on them. ANd yes he used the word "dote" I said my problem is that I'm picky and I irritate easily. He said it's good to be picky.
"So how long has you relationship been going on now?"
"WHat?"
"You and your current girlfriend"
"I don't have a girlfriend"
note: this wasn't a sly attempt for me to find out if he was dating someone, he has a big problem with switching tense when he's talking and I listen when people are talking to me.
"Oh, I thought you did?"
"....."
"........" the longest ackward silence in my life to date.
"I just can't seem to find the right girlfriend."
"Me too."
"Well you just need to find a guy who'll make you laugh, call you beautiful, love you,a dn not hit you."
"You find him for me and I'll give you a million dollars."
"Yeah" ackward smirk*
"Hmm" *Amber fake smile
That's the gist of this, now remember I'm booksmart I have no idea what's going on until it's over. So someone tell me what the hell was going on? honestly cuz as soon as he got out the car, I was screaming "I hate you" I like him, I really do, he's a total loser, but he's a loveable loser, honest! I really can't tell if he likes me or not, and I'm starting to get sick of not knowing.
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Wedding Bells Are RInging
Jun. 14th, 2006 | 04:13 pm
mood:
content
music: Cassanova- Gerald Levert
So yeah, We got a wedding invitation in the mail today. My older brother is getting married on the 26th of August. My dad want to drive, but his weddign is in fucking washington. I'm not driving. I will be on a plane thank you. The ticket cost three hundred bucks, but I could of bought my ticket in january when I found out about it. So oh well. I'm kinda excited, I've never been to a weddign before. I want to lose some wight before we go so I'm gonna get crackin now. My goal is between 30 and 50 pounds. It's possible, it just won't be fun. AND I have to find a dress, I told my mom I wanted to wear pants, but she says I shoudl wear a dress instead. What pisses me off is that she's not going. Gary's not her kid, but she could still go. It's cuz of my dad that she's not going, she doesn't want to pay his way. Which I understand, but that means its' gonna b me and my dad alone. I'm probably gonna get so pissed off. Mind you my dad begins wvery conversation with "What you need to do, amber..." or "Listen Amber..." It gets annoying really quick. But I really want to go so. WHatever. The funny part is that he's getting married on a gold course, which means, lots and lots of white people will be there. I can imagine the ceremony black people on one side, white people on the other. they probably won't even ask if you're with the bride or the groom, they'll just know. I know it sounds racist, but it's funny and probably true. ANYWAY, I'm just updating to update. I see ya later.
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I'm back to Cali
Jun. 3rd, 2006 | 09:31 pm
mood:
excited
COUNTDOWN TO CALIFORNIA: 6 hours and 29 minutes until I leave my house. This is gonna be great. I'll be so relaxed when I get home. Oh I can't wait.
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Fat or skinny, which is cheaper
May. 22nd, 2006 | 11:08 pm
mood:
contemplative
music: bleed black- AFI
So yeah, I'm fat. This I know, because the mirror tells me so. BUT, BUT I don't dislike myself or am I depressed because of it. I am however, working to get healthy. Not right now, cuz I can't afford it, but in about two weeks. I start my new diet the week I ocme back from Cali. Now losing weight is the hard part, so is keeping it off. But being the person I am, I'm not thinking of the now and during, I'm thinking of the after. If I lose the 100lbs I need to, then my skin will need to be tightened to match my new body, also my breasts will need to be reshaped (I doubt they'll get dramtically smaller, but They'll sag and I'll be pissed) and if they're still higher than a dd cup, then I'll need to have them redueced so that I can walk and stand and breathe. The cost of all that surgery is around 8k for the body lift and 4k for the breast lift and 5k for the breast reduction. I don't have that kind of money, I probably never will SO I'm not gonna stay fat, but my boobs are gonna stay big. 5k for a reduction, fuck you plastic surgeons, fuck you in the ass. Damn, I'm poor.
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So close I can taste it
May. 3rd, 2006 | 03:26 pm
mood:
bouncy
music: Emu-for my dear by gackt
Today was my last full day of school, THANK GOD!! The Finals (shit) then, I finally get a nice long break. I've been waiting for summer, it's felt like an eternity since I went swimming or just sat in the house with the air blasting. Man, I love summer. I don't like getting darker, but I love hot summer air, and clear skies. Rain is my enemy, and cold is stupid. I had to turn in a paper today so I skipped Japanese, and the freaking Byrd cancels English and he's like turn your essays in and go home. Damn it he owes me like $100 for cancelling class so much. I think he did it like 5 or 6 times this semester. But hey as long as its over I don't care. SO overall I give this semester a B, I liked most of my classes and was actually challenged qite a bit in ENglish. Yeah don't take Sex, Dance, and Entertainment with Gardner, he sucks. He's like the snappiest gay person I've ever met. Who meets mean gay people, wtf. The class was more boing the Anthropolgy. ANTHROPOLGY DAMMIT, do you know how boring that is? DO ya? AT least that teacher was awesome. He always says "right on" and looks like George Michael's long lost brother. Japanese was awesome, Hasegawa-sensei is a good teacher, but she assigns way too much homework. She teaches the next level class so I'll probably have her again, at least I got an A on every test. As far a Byrd goes, he's a good teacher. I just hate being the only black person in class. I am always the only black person. That sucks so damn much. Dammit black people, what the hell are you doing? NEWAY I just hate that he asks me a question everyday. Ask the white people dammit, ou know I'm smart, leave me alone. Yeah, there are people in that class who never talk, and he probably doesn't know their names that's why he doesn't call on them. Tip: if a teacher asks you a question answer with the 3rd best answer you can think of, cuz if you answer with the best the teacher will learn your name. Then you're screwed. So yeah, I'm in the Book n Bean waiting for my dad to pick me up, he was supposed to get my tags today, but I guess I'll have to do that tomorrow. Oh well. At least school's over, summer sweet summer I can't wait.
Ja Mata Ne. Bai-Bai
Ja Mata Ne. Bai-Bai
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Apr. 18th, 2006 | 08:56 pm
mood:
restless
I told him, I'm an idiot. He didn't say anything bad, he just said "I'm cool with that" and I was like 'WHat the fuck?' But it's better than saying no. No it's not. If he would have said no then I could move on with my life. But I guess it means he could of thought of me that way. He said I remind he of his ex though, I don't know if that's good or bad. Oh Well, at least it's off my chest. I felt ackward fpr a while, but I felt better later. I still feel like maybe I should have kept it to myself. Fucking Feelings
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The Power of Ackwardness
Apr. 16th, 2006 | 08:11 pm
mood:
Fucking Fellings
music: Love and Happiness- Al Green
SO yeah, son't ever like someone you work with. It makes things weird. And don't tell your friends who have big mouths, cuz then you worry about if they'll tell them or not. Yeah I don't want Justin to know I lke him, until I don't like him anymore. I just can't deal with the ackward feeling of working with him. Then Nikki kept saying she tell him for me, and how wouold I know if she told him or not. SO yeah I can't really get relaxed while he's at work. I spent most of my time in the breakroom showing people pictures from our bowling night. Damn feelings, I'm jsut gonna transfer departments and then I'll have no worries. Why did I tell people? What kind of idiotic decision was that? He probably knows, and then I'll have to strangle the person who told him. Cel, Justin, and some other guys from work are playing poker some time this week. Knowing Cel he'll get drunk and be like "Guess who likes you, Justin?" I'll kill him. Damn my alcoholic friends. I kept calling them all drunks at work, and Justin said "you're just mad cuz you weren't drunk." Nikki said Is hould have drunk more, that way I could have lossened up some. I was not going to get drunk in a bowling alley, with coworkers I barely know, and no reliable ride home besides my car. NO WAY! Cel says we should go out again so the me and "DUDE" as we call him, can get some alone time...PLEASE. Like I would ever have that much courage. I wish I was the type of person who could come out and say "I like you" but I'm not. So I'll just have to suffer.
On a side note slapping men is so much fun, try it sometime. Here's how you do it: Call a guy over, say something like " I need to tell you something" and when he leans in slap him. Okay aybe it's just my type of fun, but it is funny if you're the third party watching it.
On a side note slapping men is so much fun, try it sometime. Here's how you do it: Call a guy over, say something like " I need to tell you something" and when he leans in slap him. Okay aybe it's just my type of fun, but it is funny if you're the third party watching it.
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Drunk Bowling Anyone?
Apr. 14th, 2006 | 09:07 pm
mood:
prospective bf
music: Bois de Merveilles- Malice Mizer
SO yesterday or early this morning I should say (like around 12am) I went bowling with some friends from work. This was the first time I've ever gone out with anyone from work. I thought it was going to feel ackward, but it was awesome. I went out with nikki, jacki, jenni, jung, jorelle, pablo, vinny, cel, laurence, brent, and justin (the guy I have a crush on). It was a blast, they're all drunks. As soon as we all were together they had to get a drink. Actually we weren't even all there yet and vinny wanted a drink, he bought me a corona. I hate corona, but I thought "hey, maybe my taste has changed" yeah, no it hasn't. I hate corona, that shit is gross. But when nikki and jacki got there nikki bought me a screwdriver. Then justin kept trying to buy me a drink, saying that I wasn't drunk enough. THAT creeped me out. I kept saying no. I guess he was trying to break the ice, but I don't know flirtng when it's directed toward me. I tried flirting, but I get kinda timid when it comes to flirting in a large group. If it was like 5 of us, maybe I would have been better. Yeah he's a drunk. Whenever it was his turn to bowl we had to go get him out of the bar. ANd he smokes. That's negative 10 points right there. Everyone but the girls smoked. Damn those cancer-sticks
I took some pictures, but the one with me and him looks bad. I wanted to do a retake, but I felt bad cuz I wouldn't let him hug me like I did with the rest in the other pictures. But anyway, he bought me a drink at the end of the night (actually he bought like everyone a drink) and I drank it. It was fun, I kinda want to go somewhere alone with him, but then I get the creeps when I look at him sometimes. I told Nikki, Sunee, and Cel that I like him, I hope they tell him so that I don't have to. I think he likes me, but maybe I'm just imagining it. But if he calls me "girl" or "woman" one more time I'm gonna shove a bottle of corona down his throat.
The guys were getting kinda wierd and kept making kinky jokes. I kept telling them that they weren't packin' and I needed someone who was packin. They didn't believe me, so I showed my skills on the corona bottle. I got about halfway down the bottle when the guys were like "Damn, I can't do anything for you." Brent had just woke up from his drunken slumber when he saw me with the corona bottle. His face was priceless.
But yeah, I still suck at bowling, and I suck even harder when I've been drinking. But it's alot better when the guy you like is there along with 7 of your drunk friends.
I took some pictures, but the one with me and him looks bad. I wanted to do a retake, but I felt bad cuz I wouldn't let him hug me like I did with the rest in the other pictures. But anyway, he bought me a drink at the end of the night (actually he bought like everyone a drink) and I drank it. It was fun, I kinda want to go somewhere alone with him, but then I get the creeps when I look at him sometimes. I told Nikki, Sunee, and Cel that I like him, I hope they tell him so that I don't have to. I think he likes me, but maybe I'm just imagining it. But if he calls me "girl" or "woman" one more time I'm gonna shove a bottle of corona down his throat.
The guys were getting kinda wierd and kept making kinky jokes. I kept telling them that they weren't packin' and I needed someone who was packin. They didn't believe me, so I showed my skills on the corona bottle. I got about halfway down the bottle when the guys were like "Damn, I can't do anything for you." Brent had just woke up from his drunken slumber when he saw me with the corona bottle. His face was priceless.
But yeah, I still suck at bowling, and I suck even harder when I've been drinking. But it's alot better when the guy you like is there along with 7 of your drunk friends.
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Apr. 13th, 2006 | 02:20 am
mood:
depressed/content/horny
music: Apres Midi- Malice Mizer
Yeah, thunder from down under rocks, I like guys in skimp clothing. I felt kinda bad cuz I felt I was being ver shallow and animalistic only being attracted to their bodies, but after touching the nicest ass and pecks I;ve ever seen, I really didn't care. The only problem with make review show is that it's all repetitive: dance a little, take the shirt, dance a little, crawl over the stage/table/chair/woman, take off the pants, dance a little, grind a little, take off the over-underwear, dance a lot, grind a lot, shake a lot, moon the audience then go backstage. Yeah, the whole night. Not to say that it gets boring during the show, just after when you go home. Being single after seeing that show make me want to vomit. Honestly. But it was ackward seeing that kind of show with my classmates, even if it was an assignment.
SO yeah, I have so many things to do it's not even funny. Well actually it kinda is, cuz well i rather do the funny stuff first. Priorities:
1. Scare Tabby's boyfriend. I'm coming for you Bryan, we shall meet in due time.
2. Write my essay for english (damn realism and colonialism))
3. Save up for my trip to California
4. Plan an event for my Birthday (barbeque sounds good to me)
5. Re decorate my room
6. Tint my car windows
7. Buy new glasses (f* contacts, they just aren't my thing)
8. Start doing my Japanese homework (cuz getting 98 on every test and a C+ in the class is just sad)
9. Start reading for english (I just don't like it, Sparknotes is much easier)
10. Stop procrastinating (HA!)
11. Stop skipping SDE
12. Eat more green stuff
13. Eat less dripping stuff
14. Stop buying clothes for work
15. Stay off of MySpace
16. Get on the damn tredmill
17. Either lower my standards or lower my walls
18. Talk to the guy I like at work
19. Stay away from Hos? Hoes? Hose? Ho's? Stay away from shady women
20. Be nicer to my brother and dad
21. Be nicer to my friends
22. Be nicer to my cat
23. Be nicer to.. fuck nice. Tolerate people at work
24. Update my lj more often
SO yeah, I have so many things to do it's not even funny. Well actually it kinda is, cuz well i rather do the funny stuff first. Priorities:
1. Scare Tabby's boyfriend. I'm coming for you Bryan, we shall meet in due time.
2. Write my essay for english (damn realism and colonialism))
3. Save up for my trip to California
4. Plan an event for my Birthday (barbeque sounds good to me)
5. Re decorate my room
6. Tint my car windows
7. Buy new glasses (f* contacts, they just aren't my thing)
8. Start doing my Japanese homework (cuz getting 98 on every test and a C+ in the class is just sad)
9. Start reading for english (I just don't like it, Sparknotes is much easier)
10. Stop procrastinating (HA!)
11. Stop skipping SDE
12. Eat more green stuff
13. Eat less dripping stuff
14. Stop buying clothes for work
15. Stay off of MySpace
16. Get on the damn tredmill
17. Either lower my standards or lower my walls
18. Talk to the guy I like at work
19. Stay away from Hos? Hoes? Hose? Ho's? Stay away from shady women
20. Be nicer to my brother and dad
21. Be nicer to my friends
22. Be nicer to my cat
23. Be nicer to.. fuck nice. Tolerate people at work
24. Update my lj more often
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N.A.S.T.
Feb. 12th, 2006 | 11:02 pm
mood:
mischievous
music: speed master- gackt
IS talking shit a crime? I mean, is it really bad to talk shit about someone. Would it be kinder to tease them openly and embarress them in front of everybody or just talk shit with you close group behind their back? Today at work an aquaintance of mine was called into the audit office and yelled at by our department manager for talking shit about a cashier. Now she didn't HEAR him or even KNOW that he was doing this until another girl told her. WE'll call the tattle tail C, and the subject of shit talking, M. Well M told a manager didn't even go to the supervisors. Didn't even try confronting the guy who was talking shit. To clarify the situation, it was the guy, myself, my friend, and a few others at the table talking shit. Now I know better than to talk too loudly and I know who is associated with whom. SO HE said something that was pretty light compared to the other comments that my friend made. My comments stcuk to her fashion and taste in men. stuff I know about. Anyway, the subject going around the table was how she's a slut. Ad how everyone at work was on her lsi including the women. Note: I NEVER thought considered the joke to be true, but I do laugh evertime the subject comes up and tell all my friends that they're going to hell for talking shit all the time. Anyway the guy says him comment and then looks right at C. He realized immediately that she was going to tell M. Everyone was talking shit about her, but he was the only one called out. Now we're not sure if it was because he was the only person C mentioned, or if the managers waiting to call the rest of us. Now They stayed in the office for like 20 minutes before the manager came out and got M. The guy had to apologize and M was mad because she knew he didn't mean it. WELL WOULD YOU MEAN IT? honestly what would you expect? a heartfelt apology from someone who was talking shit about you. What world does this girl live in? While the guy was getting chewed out by the manager me and my friend were talkign shit as I counted out my drawer. Then we got worried that we were going to be called in next, so we paused. Then realizing that we didn't care we continued our shit talking. She was upset, when I'm upset with someone I'll call them out (depends on the person though). But my point is didn't she realize that by getting the guy into trouble she's going to create a bigger problem. She's still going to be talked about, and now not only M, but C as well, will probably be comletely ostricized. Not that they were well accepted. I don't dislike anyone, but I like to gossip. I do. At least I'm honest. If you talk shit about me, I don't want to know. If I find out I'll call you out on it. Besides that, I don't really mind. What goes around, comes around, so I expect i sooner or later. I feel kida bad cuz she cried, but as an adult one must realized, not everyone needs a reason to dislike you. deal with it. Call me out, let me know if I'm cold blooded. I'm a woman what do you want from me? I am member of N.A.S.T. (National Association of Shit Talkers) If there's something wied about you not connected to a birth defect, I just might talk about you. Talk about me, make it fair. Don't just take it, DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT! Shit talkers aren't going anyway so anyone's who isn't hardskinned had better stay away from Fry's. Anyway it's time for bed. I have school tomorrow.
Oyasumi
Oyasumi
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Nihongo no seishinsakuran
Feb. 8th, 2006 | 12:11 am
mood:
exhausted
music: End of the road- Boys 2 Men
so yeah, Japanese 114 sucks. It's not hard there's just so much freaking homework. I can't take it. It doesn't help that my manager is being stupid ad giving me MORE hours when she knows I have school. I don't mind working six days a week but I need Monday off. As you notice it's like midnight and I'm "doing" homework. I had no time to do it today. After working on Monday night (after I went to school all day) and running needed errands today then going to work, I had no time for homework. SO I'm doing it now. I thinking about changing majors again. This is getting annoying. I think I need to get a real part time job and quit work "part time" at Fry's. Part time does not consist of 41 hours a week. God I'm tired. I'd better get back to work if I want to sleep at all. Monster Juice mixed with Coffee and vodka, good stuff.
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School Is Fun
Jan. 18th, 2006 | 04:11 pm
mood:
anxious
music: none
I like my classes, my teachers are really neat. My anthropology teacher is really funny bu his lecture was kinda boring. and my japanese teacher is real funny too. My english teacher is a huge nerd and my SDE(Sex Dance and Entertainment) teahcer is totally gay. But he's funny too. So I think this is gonna be a fun semester. As far as school work, this is gonna be a tough semester. Lots of reading. And the worst part is that I can't miss class. My teachers are real hard asses on absences this semester, that suks that means I have to go to school every day.
On a side note.
I hate my yonger brother, officially. I really hate that kid. I just want him to leave and let me, my mom, and dad be happy. yeah that wrong, i don't care. I really hate him.
On a side note.
I hate my yonger brother, officially. I really hate that kid. I just want him to leave and let me, my mom, and dad be happy. yeah that wrong, i don't care. I really hate him.
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Only in Vegas
Dec. 21st, 2005 | 08:46 pm
mood:
amused
music: I can go the distance-Hecules soundtrack
So yeah, last minute Xmas shopping (only for the brave at heart). Me and Diana went to two malls and finished MOST of our Xmas Shopping. I still have to finish my mom and Diana. While we were in my car going to Chipotle for lunch it got kinda hot so I tuned on the air. And we both realize something: Only in Vegas does anyone turn in the AC December. It's true. And later I started think about other things that happens "Only in Vegas"
Only in Vegas:
~Are the number 3 and the letter D the most dangerous places to walk
~It doesn't matter what street you take you end up driving through the ghetto
~You can find more loan centers than banks
~Does one highway curve for absolutely no reason
~Do tourists curse out residents for not knowing how to drive
~Does the weather affect people's IQ
~Every apartment is reffered to as a luxury condo
I can't think of anythign else that's not on the email list. IF anyone can think of something else just post in in a comment.
Ja Ne
Only in Vegas:
~Are the number 3 and the letter D the most dangerous places to walk
~It doesn't matter what street you take you end up driving through the ghetto
~You can find more loan centers than banks
~Does one highway curve for absolutely no reason
~Do tourists curse out residents for not knowing how to drive
~Does the weather affect people's IQ
~Every apartment is reffered to as a luxury condo
I can't think of anythign else that's not on the email list. IF anyone can think of something else just post in in a comment.
Ja Ne
